Oist!

i need to take everything easy..

apparently i am very reactive.

like a bomb? X_x

why does guilt linger?

after ten years..!

haha. wag na kasi itong basahin e. ito ang basahin niyo.

hindi na ko galit sa taong un.
wahehe.

AARRGH!

Something’s wrong with e - Blogger today. Sheesh. Now I’m forced to deal with this..

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I’m sure lilipas din tong init ng ulo ko, pero for now, let me vent out my feelings.

I woke up at three and realized I forgot to make some adjustments in my reaction paper for Philo1 to be submitted today. I opened my username and (after the YM automatically signed me in) I saw a barrage of messages from burloloy_dude.

Pangiti-ngiti ka pa sa IM, akala mo di pa rin ako galit sayo.

Oo na, marami na kong naging kasalanan sayo, pero bakit ba kelangan mo pang sabihin yon ha? Hindi mo ba alam na isa yon sa pinakanakasasakit na salitang nasabi sakin nang harap harapan? Patanong-tanong ka pa kung okey ako, hindi ba halatang hindi?  Pwede bang wag ka nang magkunwaring apektado ka sa nararamdaman ko? Please lang.

Palibhasa hindi kasing exciting ng buhay mo ang buhay ko. Alam ko na yun dati pa. But it seemed so narrow minded of you to prejudge me. If you think a well lived life is just composed of writing and making art and non conforming, you’re wrong. As of now I’m discovering myself and as of now, you don’t have the right to say what you said last night. And even if you did, you should have had more sense to keep it to yourself.

Don’t blame me for being analytical. That’s just the way I am. If you find me staring into space, most likely I’m thinking. I think a lot. I think too much. That’s me. I need to think because life does not give all the answers.

And I certainly do care about other stuff in the world.

You know what? I don’t need to prove anything to you. You should have known better. I’m stubborn.

I’m updating this blog for the sake of updating it. Haha!

updating over.

hahaha

Arrgh.. Hindi ako marunong magupload ng images dito gamit ang TypePad. Ignorante talaga ako sa friendster. haha. Nakakafrustrate kasi plano kong ilagay yung parehong entry ko sa blogspot ko kaso yung mga pictures ayaw nga lumitaw. T.T No wonder di na ako masyadong nag uupdate dito. Beh!

Hmm.. As usual.. Life updates.

- may internet na sa bahay this year. PLDTmyDSL ang gamit kaya unlimited ang internet this month. Kaya masaya. Haha.

- tapos na ang long exams sa chem, math, env sci, at philo1. Midterms na ang hinihintay sa math at second long test sa chem. Hanggang ngayon di ko alam grade ko sa math exam. Matanong nga si sir. bukas..

- may bago na kaming lunch buddies sa MTh, si Darryl (team captain non ni Ambe at kaklase ko last sem sa logic) at si Jevski (best friend for life!). For now, ginagawan namin ni Roni ng issue ang dalawa. Haha. Pero malay mo..

- i got absent for the first time this year dahil sa sakit. Just woke up one morning with a splitting headache and a burning fever. Lasted about 2 days, i think. Pero nung second day, balik training uli ako sa ODE.

- speaking of ODE, nakapagperform na rin ako kasama sila nung friday, jan 20 sa bahay ng alumni. Masaya! Nireregret ko tuloy ang di ko pagsama nung casino filipino gig. Hehe.

- moving on and letting go was never this fun. (i’ll leave that to your interpretation, thankyuverymuch)

- ang bago kong blog ay buhay na buhay at almost araw-araw naaupdate (pramis). I love it na. Haha. Comments are most welcome. http://www.theparanoidoptimist.blogspot.com. paki bookmark na. Joke.

new year’s resolutions? i don’t do that formally. Maiisip ko na lang yan kapag june na. Haha.

Messages (sana makaabot)

- Roni -
so kamusta ka naman?? Haha. Araw2 kta nakikita, kelangan ka pa bang kamustahin??

- Jevic -
kamusta na si K_ _ ? evil smile…

- Char -
multitasking never works… just reminding you..

- Jenny -
sandali lang, nainvite ko na ba to?

- Kuya -
wag masyadong laro ah. Mauunahan mo kong magkaron ng eyebags. Haha. Buti ka pa matatapos na PE m. hehe. See you sa Env Sci!

- Darryl -
My mouth is shut.

- Josh -
Hoy Mr. Angas! Hehe. JOke. wag maging loner ha.

- Clark -
kamusta na si Zarah ha?? hehe.

- Eden -
di ko pa nsesend ang pics.

- Kuya Benz -
la lang! nakakamiss kau. Hehe.

- Kuya Tristan -
mamimiss ka namin! Bon Voyage!! Turuan mo kami ng French pagbalik mo.

- everyone -
Hello hello hello!! May magdedebut na ba? haha. La lang.

Have to go na. Matagal tagal bago uli ako mag uupdate uli dito.
Ciao!!

Napadaan na naman kami nung Sunday sa may st scho (malamang, talagang lagi kaming dumadaan ron hehe) at mukhang may event na nangyari at maraming kotse sa loob at labas ng campus. wahehe. Ano na namang mahalagang pangyayari ang pinagdiriwang ng aking mga fellow kulasas?

Theories:

Family Day kaya? Eh wala na nun diba?? Nung second year ata nawala yung pagcelebrate ng family day sa st scho… Yup. Naalala ko pa siya. Nirename nilang “PTS Interaction” ung event, meaning Parent-Teacher-Student Interaction lang. Yun lang. Hindi pwedeng isama yung buong angkan sa PTS unless parent mo siya haha. Ang korni! Grabeh. They were super duper strict with the policy! Hindi pinapasok yung ate at kapatid ko. Tas ung one meal and one drink rule, nag aaply pa rin so walang masyadong feast or anything. Haha. Kudos to Sr Rebecca for breaking family bonds! haha

Baka naman may thanksgiving mass? Nah. Not probable. Thanksgiving masses are scheduled at the end of the schoolyear, not the actual year. Tska hindi naman sinasama yung family sa mass na ganun eh.. institution siguro pwede pa. hehe.

Hmm. Paraffle? haha!! Bakit biglang yumaman agad ang st scho at biglang namimigay ulit ng kotse?! ha? ha? Bumalik na ba ang “Paandaran” days ng st scho?! Sheesh. eh gabi naman ginaganap yun nung grade school ah. haha. Nirevive daw ba. Tas kakanta sina Sir Joey (ei! belated hapi bday! ang tanda niyo na) tska si Dadioh ng “The greatest love of all” eewie. Ang korni ko na. In short, its very unlikely that our school would ever hold that kind of contests (kahit bingo ata parang mali eh… immoral ata kc gambling? ewan).

Baka naman nagbago ang ikot ng mundo at biglang nagkaron ng FAIR sa immaculate grounds of our alma mater?! huhu.. if that were the case, then pinagkaitan talaga’t pinag iinitan ang batch namin. Lagi na lang kaming dinedeprive of our happy high school memories… *tampo* di kami babalik sa reunion sige kayo… haha

Ewan!

You and me
We used to be together
Everyday together always
I really feel
That I’m losing my best friend
I can’t believe
This could be the end
It looks as though you’re letting go
And if it’s real
Well I don’t want to know

-don’t speak by no doubt-

Grabe!! Ang tagal ko ng di nag-uupdate dito.. ngayon lang ako nakapag internet after almost two weeks ata.. tas andaming messages sa inbox, nakakatamad basahin.. grr…

What’s new? Well, second sem na ng freshman year ko dito sa peyups. And I can honestly say that time flies by so fast.. in a span of 5 months, memorize mo na yung mundong kinagagalawan mo sa unibersidad, tapos magugulantang ka na lang dahil babaguhin mo na naman ang lifestyle mo pagdating ng second sem.. huhu… subjects ko ngayon chem 16 lec and lab, math 53, env sci1, philo 1, eng 10 tsaka pe3 sd… haha.. as if you care.

Pasensya na po sa makakabasa nito at napakamiserable ng tono ng entry na to.. Well.. I think only my closest friends know how down i feel kapag depressed ako.. sobrang malaking contrast sa usual peppy (tama ba?) perky self ko.

. . .

Nakakafrustrate pala when you realize you’ve done something you thought was okay then pero ireregret mo after some time. Tama nga ang sinasabi nila na you only realize the true value of something once you’ve lost it. And it hurts when you know there’s no chance of getting it back. You feel hopeless and shattered, and the regret you feel will linger until time helps you forget.

Regrets, but..

What’s the matter of wanting something more? 

ang blanko ng isip ko ngayon..

hehe.

Wah!! Kakakuha ko lang ng classcards kanina. Grabeh. Parang marathon pag pupunta sa mga buildings.  AS, NIGS, Math, tsaka gym kelangan puntahan. Napa exercise ako nang di oras. haha. Paghahanda lang ito sa madugong registration sa monday. Wala pa akong GE subj for MST. Gusto ko ng envi sci or marine sci or eee. hehe.

Hm.. at least it was a productive day. Nakapagcheck na ng mail tas nakabili  pa ng stuff for the next sem. Yey! Nakatambay pa ako sa National Bookstore sa Katips. Eh di masaya!

Hahaha. Naaaliw na rin ako sa grades ko. Unexpected. Coolness!